Surreal.

2011-05-02T09:55:00.001-07:00

I'm starting work soon!

In less than 8 and 1/2 hours time!

Gosh... Please please let me kanna good team mates and supervisor.

LOL!

Nights~ :)

Graduated Post

2011-03-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

Yupp I'm back to blogging since suzhou's trip post.

It has been a month since my final semester FYPJ,
busying with attending VE camp and practicing for concert.

It was productive and wonderful. But was kinda sad after concert.

The aftermath of concert was usually like this but this time,
it was because of my status as a poly student has become an ALUMNI,
and of course, not to say coming to VE prac in the future will be a problem,
just that people will treat you differently? I think...

Maybe I thought too much, but just want to say to whoever is looking at this,
I'll not change, I'm still the usual BAO!!! :D

Work's starting soon.

It's weird that the HR called me this morning but not before this week.
As when I was being interviewed, I stated that I could start work as early as
21 March. Oh well, who cares, since I've gotten the job that I applied! Hurray! :D

Was talking about relationships over the weekends,
and kinda tired to keep on tracking and catching up with people that don't
deserve your attention and concern.

Sometimes I wonder would I ever meet the right one, when you think that he/she
would be good enough for you but think again, they just simply can't fulfil
your criteria as the days goes by.

I find it really difficult to talk to such person for the time being.
Is it that I'm really tired of pursuing?
Or I just don't give a damn about intellectualising with them?

The older you get, the more you don't understand.

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2011-01-26T17:53:00.000-08:00

It's like... coincident?
or it just happen like this...

I'm speechless.

2011-01-02T00:15:00.000-08:00

Last 5 days in suzhou.

Some how I don't feel like leaving here.

Not because of the place.

Because of the awesome friends and teacher I met here.

Because of the wonderful celebrations and partying at night in other ppl's room :p

I'll miss all of you.

:'(

2011-01-01T13:08:00.000-08:00

Thank god I drank last night.
At least it made me forget about stupid things for that moment.

But damn! Now having hangover :'(

*cry*

2010-12-30T07:04:00.000-08:00

2011 will soon arrive in less than 25 hours!!!
**Ahem... I shall start my long speech again. HAHA :D

KIASU FAMILY

I really want to thank you guys for the 3 hardcore years of KIASU family-ship,
there maybe sometimes when we seriously wanted to scold each other but we didn't
(I'm not 挑拨离间-ing ok ^^||| ) cause we know we care for each other too much :D

May the new year 2011 bond us stronger and still remain our KIASU spirit! ♥♥♥ :D

DBT0802

Thank you xinyi, hongling, yanjie, Ida for influencing me with the laughter and
craps you girls live throughout the 3 years of poly because without that,
I think I will die during HCM days... HAHAHAHA xD

And thank you sihao, daryl, stanley, cheryl and the rest which are once part
of DBT0802 ♥ :)

DBT Cohord

Thank you all DBT friends whom I know from 01- FEPPZ (See I got mention you
girls! :D ), 03 and 04, for all the wonderful memories from FMO till FYPJ which
is... now... LOL!

VE

Thank you my beloved VE juniors and seniors and alumnis.
I simply love every single practice that's spent with you guys~
You guys play a big part in my life! ♥ :D

N** Colleagues and Interns

I think without you guys, my intern days in the company would be quite boring and
lifeless. Thank you edalene, selwyn, hui shan, janice, alan, wen jie, wee jie,
beng liang, daniel, huimin, jasmine, liting, paul and the rest :D

PEARLIN RUO YUAN PEI YING

OH MY GOD... I can't believe how long we've been together. LOL
Damn... 7 years!

Going to 8 years in 2011!

Enjoy your craps and "lobsters" a.k.a juicy gossips every week ladies!
Hope it continues until we all get married and grow old becoming grumpy grandmothers.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD

LOVE YOU GIRLS! ♥♥♥ :D

OBS Rajaratnam!

After 1 year and we're like finally had our own chalet! Really glad to know
you guys in OBS and thanks for the fun, laughter, help and concern you guys gave :D

You guys are Awesome!!! ♥

511/512

Although the outing this year is DAMN CUI TTM!
But I'm sure in the coming year 2011 we'll organise more outings and gatherings
and meetup with miss soo!

Thanks for the wonderful memories that you guys gave :D

Ernest Jia Xing Dawn Timothy Javier

Thank you guys for coming into my life, I've learnt alot of things from you guys
and the care and concern you guys always give,
and seriously for the first time I wanted to shout "I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!"
Hope 2011 will be a better year for everyone! ♥

SUZHOU P4 PEEPS

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!

Although I only know some of you like for less than 3 weeks?
But you guys really create a whole lot of damn great awesome memories over here!
Lets make much more memories for the coming last week in suzhou!

♥

Oh ya... I forgot my new year resolution. HAHAHA xD

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ♥

2010-12-20T02:13:00.000-08:00

I forgot what I'm supposed to do in suzhou...

IT'S PROJECT!

Not play!

Focus LL, FOCUS!!!

Stop thinking about things that are unrealistic...

:(

2010-12-15T19:06:00.000-08:00

OMG it's freezing here in suzhou, it's only day 4 and the temperature's
dropping to minus 2 degree... =((

Me and xin yi even wear our mask in lab... imagine how cold it is!!!

Off day is on friday and saturday, wow... imagine ppl in nyp off sunday but we still have to work on sunday =(

Priscilla dun laugh at us hor! hahahahaha xD

Ok back to work... =))

2010-11-15T08:09:00.000-08:00

Just ranting some random thoughts.

What for going after something when you know it's never ever going to come true/happen.
Emotionally wise, I don't deny the fact that we're all desperately in need of love.
But facing reality, everyone should know liking someone who is special comes with
consequences.

It's not like it never happen on me before, but when seeing and hearing something
like this happening to a close friend it's like seeing the shadow of yourself.
Seriously both are different cases, very different! and it's very complicated.

Firstly, age gap, well it's not really a very big problem.
Secondly, race, who cares about whether you're yellow, white or brown, as long as you
like the person right?
But the most important thing is, the fact that whether they come clean with their relationship status.

You wouldn't want to be blinded by love and later being accused as the third party,
that is totally dumb and stupid.

To my friend, think real hard!
This doesn't only affect you and him/her,
it will/might affect their family or even yours.

That's all for today.

2010-10-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

Alright... Some updates.

Night cycling at ECP with raja + wei yee,
fell down near by parkway parade =.=
BUT FUN :D !

Popeyes with kiasu family, enjoyed TTM! Love them ♥! :D

WWW with raja again + wei mun
(2 consecutive weeks I met my Dcamp group members sia :p )
FUN x3! AWESOME :D !

Laugh and laugh and laugh! lOl

AND TMR! with xinyi them! Minds Cafe!!! YIPPIE!!!

But I shall jog before I go,
12 laps - 35 mins! CHIONG! :D

2010-10-07T07:58:00.001-07:00

YEAH!~ Meeting kiasu family tomorrow for dinner :D

I think my weekends are always packed with lots of activities,
no time to rest then next day IPP already... =.=
hahahahaha but I like it! :D

Work so far was ok. I need to sleep earlier, sufficient 8 hours of sleep!
Cos this week keep going back home late, 11pm plus ~ 12pm...
And my dark eye circles are coming out already :'(

Gawd... I think I'm missing a few people right now, especially
PEARLIN, PEIYING & RUOYUAN!
I'm unable to see you girls for another 1 week! :'(

Hais...

Don't miss me...

HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

2010-10-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

I didn't realise that when xinyi, hongling, ida and yan jie combine with kiasu
family, we're DAMN NOISY!!! But I like it!!! ^^ Hahaha

3rd week of IPP, not really good, my performance was damn bad! :((

Celebrated cheryl's birthday. Finally get to see and carry her dog!!! HOMG!!!
Chloe's DAMN ADORABLE LAH!!! Feel like hugging her all day long... hahahah xD
But seriously she's too cute to live with. I think I'll accidently squash her if I
never see :p

Went for silver infocomms event in school.
Helped the senior citizens in getting basic hands on practical session of windows 7.
Even we ourselves don't know some of the functions that can be done, shocked! :D

AND I get to eat lunch with my kiasu family again! Without allan... lOl!

So nice to sit down with classmates in koufu eat lunch that's bought with
koufu voucher! HAHAHA!
It's actually a lunch voucher that's given by the school for us volunteers. Cool uhh :D

Can't wait till next week cause more activities are coming up!!! WOOHOO!!! :D

2010-09-23T08:32:00.001-07:00

THANK GUAN YIN MA IT'S FRIDAY IN LESS THAN 30 mins!!!

Hahahahaha =)

Going to meet kiasu family and F4(except ida)!!! LOL

I thought i went back school today can see him,
but sadly someone told me you guys are already having holiday :(

2010-09-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

これからも　

ずっと一緒にいると　

思ってた。。。

2010-09-22T08:23:00.001-07:00

Finally I got the time to blog.

2nd week of attachment, not so bad, but still couldn't take the initiative to help,
and I felt very bad for my team lead, she needs to handle lots of invoices
yet I keep pestering her to assign task for me.
(I actually should ask from my supervisor first...) :(

Went back school for VE practice on monday, gawd... I missed singing so much!!!
Kept gossiping with nephew about those muscular guys at S-11... LOL

Thought today I could get a glance at him today but turn out he wasn't there,
kind of sad :(

Supposingly attachment should shove me away from all these unwanted crush feelings,
yupp, it did, and it got worse!

Can someone just scold me "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! STOP EMO-ING CAN?!"
Arhgg... It's all that stupid alan zhu's fault, say what ask me to go to the wall and
question myself why i created my email account with that stupid name =.=

Hahaha FYI, Alan Zhu is one of NYP SIT student working in same company as me :)
Cause he very poor thing ah, nobody to eat with him during lunch so he join my group.
HAHAHAHAHAHA! (actually is the other way round T_T )

Now the time is 11.33pm, I have 19 more hours before I can access FB again at home.

Hais... I don't know what's wrong with myself today, weird...

2010-09-02T08:58:00.000-07:00

LAST PAPER!

okays, no more fb...

lOl

2010-08-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

why? is it because of the songs that were played in club last night?
how on earth could this feeling come back?

eye candy or crush?

how should I define it?

is there any theory to it?

:(

2010-08-25T08:22:00.000-07:00

Urhggg... i feel so lethargic...
no motivation to study for monday's exam...

HOW!?!

:'(

2010-08-23T00:57:00.000-07:00

3 weeks of exam break coming to an end and I've yet to start any revision Q.Q

Gym was great on saturday cause i can feel my muscles aching!!! Muahahahahaha!!! :p
Went to Minds Cafe on sat night with W.J.J.D and we played uglydoll! COOL HUH!
4 guys playing uglydoll, imagine how they scream when snatching the cards... LOL

And yesterday(sunday) was a final blow for me at work.
Didn't do much of 'assisting' but instead I was doing housekeeping...
sweep floor, mop floor, clean cupboards, tables, chair, wash tools,
pack plastic bags. (I should be hired as cleaner instead of "dental assistant")

That should sum up my weekend activities. LOL
Actually I'm too lazy to update the rest, DBT chalet,
KBOX (one with VE and another one with pearlin & ruoyuan),
watched the jade and the pearl...

Oh tomorrow! going ECP with xy, hl, ida and yj
:D

Hope it's not closed for YOG
*cross fingers*

2010-08-06T10:50:00.000-07:00

If I could just have the courage to tell you...
But it's too late :(

Today's the end of yog practice, end of academic sem, tomorrow's the Actual Event.
I shouldn't have went for the practice today, maybe I thought too much, but I did see
you with... (no, they never hold hands =.=)

My heart just sank abit, but it's ok, at least we're just Hi Bye friends,
if not huhh, I'll definitely hurt like siao. LOL

Drama, yes indeed, I compiled 254 page of report like mad and then irresponsibly
throw the checking job to my members then rush to practice and in the end get
myself hurt. Fantastic! =(

Can someone please teach me how to be less sensitive...

2010-08-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

15 weeks of hardwork to a short 30 minute presentation, and today, HCM project ended.
How fast huh...

But we still have to do report and hand in on friday,
guess my law and ethic's report can 'pass up' nx week. LOL

Didn't prepared well enough for just now presentation, didn't look at cue cards
and just merely speak what I know about payroll. Gawd... super scary!!! =((
Felt relieved when xinyi say that Mr Ang said our group presentated quite well... phew~

Now I'm left with Financial Practical Test, SGH performance, HCM 30% Test.
Oh oh reminding myself to collect my St Regis Kitchen Helper's Pay on thursday :p

HAHAHA :D

2010-08-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

Sad, is the only thing I know, right now.

Perhaps I need a holiday, a break from this stress environment.
Relationship or not, is not my priority anymore,
but still, if can, hope that we can keep in contact (provided he doesn't reject)

Today was like any normal practice.
Said hi then nothing else, never even chat.

I don't know whether he's attached or not, but it seems like they're very close to
each other.

6 more days will mark the end of yog flashmob performance...
and I don't even have a single clue to how I'm going to talk to you :(

2010-07-30T09:45:00.000-07:00

Presentation coming, acadamic semester coming to an end.
I'm really going to miss all of you, especially you.

:'(

2010-07-22T09:55:00.000-07:00

Don't like to be competitive in fields which I'm not good at all.
Don't like to be compared with the SMART ones cause I'm not one of them.
Don't like to lose out to people only if they're worth for me to compete with.
Don't like to be nagged cause I like to figure out the problem myself even if I fail.
Don't like to be forced to do things which I don't like.
Don't like strangers or unfamiliar people touching my hair or tickling me.
Don't want to be somebody elses shadow cause I'm who I am.

Urhg... why am I so picky :\

2010-07-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

Recently pearlin, me, ruo yuan and pei yingg keep FHC-ing.
I think we're too despo to be in a relationship. LOL
(except for py, cos she's the only one who has ex-bfs among us, hahahaha xD )

Was betting with pearlin on msn and decide to see who will
'GOP' our individual eye candy by november
(result will be none, i guess T_T )

AND I FREAKING HATE THIS WEEK!

Miss VE last practice.
Miss flashmob practice.
Miss samba audition for 28 july mac performance.
Miss my chance to see him for this week cos friday will NOT have practice :'(

I think I shall go back into my bed and continue to FHC :(

Oh Btw, inception was awesome!
Everyone should go and watch it! :D

2010-07-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

Ok I feel really bad now.
COS I DIDN'T GO FOR PRACTICE!
AND I REALISE IT'S THE LAST PRACTICE BEFORE THE SEMESTER BREAKS!!! :'(

Tskk... freaking hate myself now.
Gawd... can someone slap me! :'(

I want practice yet I don't want to fail this last quiz!
Hais...

IT3562 Corporate Governance can really kill my brain cells,
so many things to study!!! Hope I can at least pass... :'(

ARRRRGGGGRGGHHHHHHH....

PEK CHEK AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-14T05:25:00.000-07:00

4 more weeks to go till study break,
but somehow, I don't want this to end so fast.

I still want to eat lunch with all my classmates.
I still want to study even though I keep complaining about how bias lecturers are.
I still want to stay back in sch everyday to do project
(abit crazy but if can, I want to ton overnight to chiong proj)
I want the kind of feeling that you're so late for CCA and you rush to practice
after lesson!

I want to stay longer in school to see if there's any chances I'll bump into you
again.

But in the mean time, I'll enjoy everything that's happening now,
& let it become the most memorable memory in my 3 yrs of nyp life :D

2010-07-12T09:37:00.000-07:00

Quizzes and assignments piling up like mad.
By the end of this week I'm really going to become a zombie =.=
DAMN TIRING AND STRESS!!!!!!! :'(

My relieving pill will only occur on tuesday and friday,
which is the YOG flashmob practice!!!
And I'm chosen to be one of the Samba Flashmobbers! *Hurray*
So looking forward to it today! :D

Pls let lessons end fast today and I can get to see *** later >_<

2010-07-07T10:13:00.000-07:00

My lappy's charger died on tuesday :( , but at last! I got a new one today!
Thanks to mummy! :D

The interview for all of us was suppose to start at 10.15am
but we waited until 10.30am :\
This shouldn't be called an interview, it should be called as a talking session...

Lunch with pearlin and py at ZHOU's kitchen.
Gawd damn fulling again, and shit me! eat so much since starting of sch hols!
(need to go on diet :( )

Hmmm... to pearlin and py,
I think mm got GF alr lah, no chance! HAHAHAHAHA xD

2010-07-04T04:52:00.000-07:00

MM kind of resembles him... Ok whatever.

Working with pearlin was super awesome yesterday cause head chef is not around!
LOL...
And the whole kitchen only both of us are girls =.=

After work we're rushing like mad inorder to catch the last train.
Then morning woke up damn tired cause I reached home at about 1am,
and today work was si bei tired!!!

tsk...

2010-06-30T10:42:00.000-07:00

To pearlin peiyingg and ruo yuan, pls don't flood my cbox!!! OMG!!!
hahaha xD

Had lunch with clique at mac! Gawd, felt so happy, haha :D
To excited until when I lean back on the chair, my head hit someone behind me...
=.=

Briefing on the overseas fyp was super boring, and stupid!
What for ask us to go for interview to 'secure' our place for overseas fyp?!
It's not like it's cheap lor.

Anyway, mug on HCM practical until 9pm and Ida wants to order pizza again!
Luckily didn't order, otherwise I'm really going to become a real BIG BAO liao =<

Chatted with them at mac until 10.30 and I saw the same guy again, sians =.=
why the bunch of ppl keep appearing there?!

It's not that I don't like, I just feel that whenever I'm in good mood,
there'll always have something to remind me things that I don't want to remember.
& It's not like I want to remind myself lor, what can I do :(

2010-06-28T19:04:00.000-07:00

It's my 500th post!
& I'm stuck in school for lessons and proj =.=

Supposingly everyone's going to watch despicable me on saturday,
but too may of them cannot make it so we just have to postpone it. Sad :(

Working in town on sat again =.= haha, not that I dun like to work with you guys ah,
just that I don't like the employees over there.

At least I chiong finish this week's work and temporarily will have NO work for the
next weekend! Yippie! :D

Ok now i'm seeing sth that I want to achieve first,
work hard for sufficient money to buy clothes!!!

:D

2010-06-28T10:22:00.001-07:00

Don't know why I was so nervous during practice,
that's why I keep sniffing and hugging my jacket, at least it keeps me calm.

School today was quite boring.
No! I'd say lazy rather than bored.
Yes, I'm super lazy today, dunno why =O

Got distracted after lunch, cos xinyi was discussing with hongling about
Jo Kwon which I'm now like going CRAZY over him, simply cos,
he looks like a cute gay. LOL

He's really CUTE with GaIn from brown eyed girl, cos they're filming a variety
show which they have to become fake newly weds and stay with each other for
a few months. Gawd... they're so lovely and sweet!!! :D

And the korean male idol in carribean MV reminded me of
a cute guy I saw at taka on saturday, they both look so ALIKE!!! OMG!!!

hmpf...

alright i'm tired, nights.

2010-06-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

DAMN! Woke up with muscle cramp on my legs and arms!
I can't even walk properly down the stairs! :(

Met pearlin and pei ying at ps for dim sum in lao bei jing. :)
And we're joking saying that we should have a 4 pair outing someday
when we're all attached. HAHAHAHAHA xD

Pearlin made me laugh, she say that her auntie wants her to join
match making agency to get her to know more guys! LOL! LMAO! ROFL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD

Seriously, I couldn't stop laughing :p

On our way back to yishun, pei ying was chatting with me about her tutee, a primary 2 girl,
whom she cannot tahan! Ok lah, still can, but needs to 耍一点小手段 to make her do her
work, e.g. sweets and little gifts...

Both of us were like, omg, we're not like that when we're in primary 1 or 2,
our tutor can scare the hell out of us lor, we don't even dare not to do tuition work.

& kids nowadays si bei demanding!
She was telling me that THAT naughty girl, told her in the middle of tution that
she's hungry!

=.=

PY I salute you! lOl

2010-06-24T09:06:00.001-07:00

I'M BACK FROM VE CAMP!
It's a super duper awesome camp with my group GAGA and forte and bunny! :D

GOOD JOB Comm 10/11!!! I'm really proud of you guys!!!
& Thank you mei hui and sin chi for all the prize preparation and wrapping
them so beautifully :D
(Next time can buy cheese ring? HAHAHAHA xD)

Hope juniors have fun too! :D
Although it's abit tiring after shower from water bomb activity,
but I think everyone enjoyed the showcase, cause our skits are funny
(Wanna watch video go ask sin chi! She got record :D )

Ok gtg sleep now... Super tired.. Zzzzzz
Oh, I'll upload pictures within these 3 days :D

toodles~

2010-06-21T23:55:00.000-07:00

Met up with pearlin, ruo yuan and pei ying yesterday for buffet :D
Gawd... I almost fall asleep when eating. LOL

Shopped at amk hub and saw kai qing!
Glen called her and she accidentally hang up the call when she picks up.
(cos she's using iphone :p)

VE practice was awesome yesterday.
Sat down with the juniors and discussing about outings like kbox etc... :D

Went back home on train with nicholas (毛的！LOL)
Guess sometimes I shouldn't assume things unless assuring from the person itself.
You guys also hor! Don't assume things which are not happening.
(What you say freaked me out lor =.=)

VE CAMP IS TMR!!!

Anticipating the games and bonding with everyone :D

当女人真的很麻烦。。。

2010-06-20T12:28:00.000-07:00

It's not until these few days then I realise, I can live w/o you.

Was it that our conversation getting lesser and lesser each day,
or was that new friend of yours made me drifted away from you?

I no longer feel that important to you anymore, do I?

Little bit by bit I'm forgetting how I use to like you.
The tears and all the curses and swear, just seems like it happened yesterday.

At last it's slowly recovering already, not like the first day,
when it hurt me so much that I feel like killing myself.

Sometimes I'd just wish to sleep forever and live in my dreams,
when you and me could be together...

2010-06-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

Exhausted but FUN!

Had an overnight stay at Ida's house on thursday.
SUPER DUPER FUN!

HL and YJ became the bikini sisters! HAHAHA!
And Ida's classic sneeze in the pool when she's floating. LOL

Her mum was very generous to treat us dinner :D
But the night wasn't that fun without yj.
Her brother called to check on her and even came all the down
to tampines to fetch her! wtf...

Although her parents are not living in sg, and of course her brother needs to take
the responsibilty of taking care of her.
But Pleasseee la! She's already an adult!
You can't expect she'll stay by your side 24 hrs a day! =.=

Played deal breaker during mid night, and everyone keep taking my property! :(
Played another game call Sabotuer and Ida blocked everyone! Including her team mate HL!

LOL

Everyone woke up at 12.30pm yesterday when we're supposed to wake up at 11am. Haha
Then we cab down to marina square to treat Ida Yuki Yaki cause she passed her driving test :D

This time we turned clever!
Scraped off the ice on top then pour the liquid in it to fry ice cream!
It was delicious :D

I went off earlier cause I thought I'll be meeting my friend, in the end didn't :(
Then Ida they head down to bras basah to buy things.

ARHGG...
working tmr morning 9am!!!
wish me luck! HEE :D

2010-06-16T01:33:00.000-07:00

Working as kitchen helper was quite ok.

Not really that tough.

I like making pastry more than doing the main course.

Pearlin and peiying cam whoring at the back of the kitchen.

ME :)

The dessert that we made

2010-06-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

Was having jx b'dae celebration at ecp last saturday.
I don't know how to explain the situation, it was in a mess!

But I love the game part :)

Went back home on sunday morning and slept until 9pm and then fall back to sleep
again at 12am -.-

Baked cupcakes yesterday at pris house and arhg...
I over estimated the time. When all the icings are cooled it was 8.00pm already.

Anyway!
THANK YOU PRIS! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! >.<
Even though 2 b'dae girls didn't turn up for practice and it turn out to be like a
normal treat session -.-

Alrights, gtg work now.

BB

2010-06-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

Zhien yi's brain got abit off today.
Ms goh said to betrained IT, then she interpret it as Betray IT =.=

Finally had lunch with clique!!! :D
But without mei zhen. Poor thing lah she, cough cough cough, then now so sick,
still demand for mash potato from pris! (luckily i never feed you, haha ^^''')

MUST GET WELL SOON OK! I WAITING FOR YOU FOR NEXT MONDAY'S LUNCH :)
provided if you're free from work :|

GAWD... Tomorrow last day of school for this term! WOOHOO!
BUT! I still have one more quiz and presentation! ARHG! DON'T CARE!
After tomorrow i'm going to have fun!

First thing after tomorrow is to go IT fair with xinyi, yanjie, hongling and Ida :D
And then later at night shopping! Heehee ^^

I LOVE FRIDAYS!!! ♥

2010-06-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU Priscilla Goh for making mash potato for us!!! xD

I know you made it in the first place cause you know I like to eat potato
then after that you decided to make for everyone right?! HAHAHAHA!!!

=.=

AND THAT IDIOT VERY BRAINLESS ONE LEH!

We're already late for lesson and the idiot still wants to go through Ida's part.
Wth... and IDA you also another IDIOT!
Can't you wait until tomorrow then show the idiot, when we're sooo late for our
security tutorial! What if our attendance got deduct?!

ARHGGG......

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE STOP THEM FROM BEING SO IDIOTIC !!! !!!

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2010-06-08T09:11:00.001-07:00

Totally ruin my day again! IDIOT!
Arhg...

The queue for all food stall at south was insanely LONG!
And I queued for about 5 mins to buy my lunch! wth...

Finance quiz was ok, except for 2 questions which I totally didn't read up,
and 1 question which I flipped through while revising but didn't memorise, tsk =.=

Anyway can pass luhh...

I don't get the point of why teacher make us do the balance scorecard table when
eventually we're justing copy and pasting all information into it.
The points are super LONG, super time consuming, ended up doing it for an hour
and missed my pizza hut dinner! :(

In the end I eat porridge at home.

NO LIFE AH!

I want a job! (ok I'm getting one already)

I need more money to shop!

I need holiday! (which will be coming in less than 3 days ^^)

I need ... somebody to cheer me up.

:(

2010-06-06T06:11:00.000-07:00

I got so worried over something and couldn't sleep until morning 5am plus.
Hais... feel so vexed and useless.

Morning receive sms from the person and they ask me to go for an interview!
Gawd... =.= why monday?!
So I requested for a change of date and time, & then I realise I forgot
that I'm haveing a stupid national education presentation on wednesday at 2pm
when I actually already requested for a change to wed at 3pm!

Make me feel so bad now.
It's like asking them to cham xiong my timing rather then theirs T.T

Met YJ at orchard to go and see the tea session.
But then when we reach there, it was like wtf?! NOTHING!
In the end we ended up shopping at far east! ^^

Bought the same necklace as YJ. Both of us liked the same black one!
Then no choice just have to draw lots. LOL
YJ WINS! So she took the black one, anyway the blue one I took was also nice :)

Now mummy's nagging me to go eat dinner.
Parents will never stop asking, how many times must she repeat the same question
when I already answered her?!

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2010-06-05T07:13:00.000-07:00

Didn't receive any calls from the clinic, but I really hope they can recruit me :(

Slept until 1pm then daniel called.
wth, ask me to go buy balloon within 4 hours time =.=

But the good thing was that I met pei pei at bishan!!! ^^
Never see her for long long time already!

After that daniel drove to sunshine plaza (luckily he got driver's instinct)
and we're super lost cause there're like 10 over printing shops?!
Ok he got his stuff printed.
And the card's graphic was super familiar and reminded me what someone told me that
he's going to make that for someone else =.=

Anyway the card was cute, really cute :)
The real person not really that cute =\
OK I was joking! LOL xD

2010-06-04T09:56:00.000-07:00

I keep using emoticons to cover my feelings.
I blogged with laughters and smiley faces, but I don't feel happy at all.

Every post that I blog reminds me of what happen for the day,
at least I won't forget what I've done. But the feeling I get in the end, is nothing.
I don't know whether I'm still living like a human or not.
Or am I waiting for someone to become the source of my motivation to live on.

Doing the same thing over and over again, meeting the same people,
eat as usual, sleep as usual.
After all the tiredness, you're left alone again.

No one notice how you're feeling.
No one would take the first step to concern you.

Lecturer puden was right somehow,
asians don't communicate much with each other.
We don't behave as intimately as europians and not dare to 'share' our thoughts.

One of the things that we learn today during people skills. Man and Woman.
A Man's brain has several box, and one of them is the nothing box.
A Woman brain's like a coiled wire, it interlinks everything together.
Man spends too, on gadgets which cost thousands of dollars while
woman accumulate it into a big amount. (So who spends more? :\ )
Woman will take several hours shopping before helping her friend to buy a pair of jeans
while man only takes a few minutes.

Even though after hearing the difference between man and woman,
we still can't understand each other.

So weird.

2010-06-03T09:22:00.000-07:00

Don't know why I feel so sleepy today.
Everyone in class noticed that I keep falling asleep :(

And IDIOT jun hao, call me banana.
Just that my jacket looked yellowish doesn't mean I'm a banana! wth...
Yi Jie more WORSE! Call me goreng pisang! =.=

Tomorrow have to rush payroll cos saturday might be going for job interview.
All thanks to YJ :D

AND TMR is friday! Which means HOLIDAY IS COMING in less than a WEEK'S TIME!!!
WOOHOO!

I'm going to learn new dance, work with my friends, go picnic and cycling,
go out with my sec 5 and 4 classmates :)
Most importantly, VE CAMP! >_<

I couldn't be avoiding you every week and treat as if I don't know you,
this isn't me, this isn't my behaviour.
I'll just need to have that little bit of courage and sincerity to talk to you.

2010-06-02T09:00:00.000-07:00

Just now I nearly can't log into my msn acc/messenger :'(
Don't know which stupid IDIOT hack into my account and msn made it temporarily BLOCKED.

Great.

Thought it would be a good day today,
but my stupid brain and body couldn't coordinate.

It's been a week already.
I should've clarify everything just now, but I couldn't cos I'm too scared.
I'm a coward and I'm SCARED ok! I'm too scared to be rejected.
I couldn't even say a HI.

Even mh noticed when we walking to the station.

It reminded me of a fight with my good friends and we didn't talk in class for the whole day.
I was so upset and asked my eng teacher what should I do.
"The best way is to let them know that you're sorry and talk to them face to face."
In the end I walked up to them and apologise, they accepted.

Why couldn't I do it now?

2010-06-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

Need to change all my acc password.
Idiots hack into my twitter acc and wrote
'sex is good'

wtf...

2010-06-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

因为不常用电脑的关系，以前是用笔记本来写日记的。

通常一年会用上至少两本，可现在一本都没用到。

有时还会怀念写日记的心情，

因为只有自己知道每天所发生最微小的细节，唯有自己最了解。

以前都是自己一个人独来独往，就算心中有苦也找不到朋友谈。

可不知从什么时候开始，我开始关心我周遭的朋友。

又不知是谁教会了我，让我知道我并不孤单。

让我学会如何去付出但不求回报，

让我学会如何踏出那一步，去和第一次见面的朋友沟通，

让我懂得真正的朋友是经过无数次的争吵都还会挂念着对方。

最近真的忙得不可开销。

搞得我可能已经忘了这些简单的道理。

有时候我不知道自己在讲些什么话，可能惹到大家不高兴，请你们见谅，

在这里跟你们说一声，“对不起”。

Thank you 511, pearlin, pei ying, ruo yuan, shahrana,
ting li (for picking my call when i cried so badly in school when you're chasing
S.H.E... ='D )

Hui ying, hui hui, hui xian, wei ping, shi lin, gui ping!

CHOU CHOU (YQ)! ZHU ZHU! FISH! BA GUA!

The 4 beauties of my group :D

Shu yi (w/o your guidance, i don't think i can survive throughout the entire 2009 yr
thank you so much!)

Victoria (thank you for giving me encouragement time after time! I know you feel vr
tired. haha xD)

VE alum9! Pei Pei~ Sheryl~ Winnie~ Vanessa~ Wan Qi~

Daniel (thank you for asking your mum to spend money on fuel to drive us home,
sometimes...^^ )

Qiu yi (for dragging daniel into VE and becoming comm... =p)

Walter (for spending travelling time to come down for practices after work :)...
I know you're very tired also)

Sin Chi (for staying on even though your friend left after audition, lol)

Alvin, Mei Hui, Ain :D

I didn't thank for the year 2009, so this shouldn't be too late,
thank you all for being my friends :)

2010-06-01T05:02:00.000-07:00

一天也可以改变很多事情

from mz's status

2010-06-01T02:39:00.000-07:00

KPO!
Eavesdrop on me and xy while we chatting about suju, wth...
Never seen such KPO people before, somemore guy lehh... =.=

Whatever.
Presentation over, my 10% quiz GG! :(

Another war next week... arhg...
PLEASE! I want HOLIDAY!!!!

Monday - system walkthrough (I don't even know how to do payroll, how to start?)
Tuesday - IT Finance quiz x_x
Wednesday - NE presentation
Friday - Security quiz!!!

Now I can't even breathe properly, how to cope with all these SHITS!

jy la LL :'(

2010-05-31T12:05:00.000-07:00

Oh great pearlin mah's at genting!
(must remember to buy me chewing gums ahh :D )

arhg... no one to talk to

Friendship sick.

Love sick.

Back to square one.

Alone again.

great.

N.I.G.H.T.S !

:(

2010-05-31T08:57:00.000-07:00

It's better to have someone understand you and comfort you
when that situation happens!!!

I wished my 'mind reader' friend was there.
(you know who...)

Simply, I got JEALOUS ok!

J.E.A.L.O.U.S!

I know you'll definitely read my blog. YOU WILL!
:'(

2010-05-30T06:51:00.000-07:00

She puts me in priority before everything else,
we all put you in priority when you come back home, of course.

But you place her in what position in your heart?
Nothing.

You gave her things which are useless at this point of time.
Your sorry meant nothing but just a word that comes from the dictionary.

I should've not stop her from moving.

Till the day when this situation gets out of control,
I should prepare myself with a list of things to pack and move out.

2010-05-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

I misunderstood her again.
It's heartbreaking to see her cry.

why can't he trust her?
why is he repeating the mistakes again?
why can't he help her when she needed him the most.

"I can't ask anymore favors from him..."

Men don't understand women and women don't understand men.
But sometimes it applies to the same gender.

They don't know what each other's doing.
One who only knows how to work all day long and don't even care about his children.
One who hopes he can spend more time with her but don't give a damn about telling him.

why human just can't be honest to each other?
A few short sentences like I need you, I miss you, I love you,
is it really that difficult to say when you reach a certain age?

I think i'll never know why until I become a parent.

I admire others while some admires mine.
Life's a chore. Get over it.

2010-05-29T01:34:00.000-07:00

I don't understand parents.

When you came home late, they make a big fuss about it.
When they came home late, they say it's for work and ask us to shut up.

So now as your daughter I don't have the rights to ask you?

Called you so many times, your phone is off and I don't know where the hell you went.
Stayed up so late, worried about you and you don't give a damn about calling me.

Fine. I don't speak, don't care.
I finish up the laundry and go to bed.

And then you came back at 3plus.
I was hoping you could just open that door of mine, but you didn't.

Who's the one changing now...
you or me?

2010-05-28T08:19:00.001-07:00

Had so much fun today and yesterday !!!
Forget about the unhappy ones. Let's talk about yesterday first :D

So sweet of my classmates to cheer me up.
I bought Big breakfast in the morning at school and wrote that it didn't make me
happy at all, then my classmate daryl say "then eat happy meal..." LOLs!!!
(that's not cheering me up... )

Xin yi was explaining the same thing that happen to her and
made me not to think that much again, thx girl, luckily got you.
Yan Jie was trying to convince herself that she need to diet and eat apples every
morning in the end she's still tempted by IDA, cos IDA's treating everyone dinner!

Hong Ling made me laugh until I cry in toilet. LOL, don't get it wrong, everyone
of us were in toilet when she's trying to imitate IDA and shoot her off. Hahahaha xD
Feel so bloated after having jap food. THANK YOU IDA !!! I know you realise I wasn't
feeling happy that day so you treat me.
(maybe it isn't but i treat it as it is ok! lol)

Shop around amk hub cos our lovely IDA wants to buy shoes.
Then I spotted some cute shirts at OP.

GAWD! The kid's shirts are super duper damn cute!!! Nowonder parents like to shop
clothes for their kids... Of course I bought the adult size lah.

And when I was paying for it, I saw jia xing and dawn stare at me outside OP shop!!! o.o
I knew I would bump into them, ok not bump into, they spotted me first :p
And then... like that lor, tskk... don't wanna talk about it, k move ON!

So we sat down at Mos to chat, talked about alot of things and future who's going
to get married first, of course it's IDA again. Harr so funny ~ xD

OK TODAY! I overslept :(
WAS suppose to meet yq at cck station at 12plus! And I reach there at 1.30 pm =.=
Everyone (mz, yq, pris) was there already and they even finish lunch!
Too bad I need to Da Bao back to pris house eat, but neh mind, cos pris got CAR!
Hahaha xD

Traitor zy never come to meet us instead she went to pris house first so she can
play with dove and truffle!
Cause she knows when mei zhen and us reach,
pris will keep dove in cage before we get down the car.
(dove is a vr vr bad female dog which will lick and bite human beings,ba gua and bao) LOL

So they start to prepare the materials to bake cupcakes.
Then dunno why all of a sudden I became the flour seiver, but I'm actually vr good at it! :D

Finish baking then we start to put icing. Again! I'm the one who's drawing
everyone's name on top :D
Last time when celebrating xy's b'dae also like that.
Tsk... ME too pro liao lahh. HAHAHA XD

When drawing half way for mz, got a hole in the plastic then I have to squeeze vr hard.
In the end the icing came off and drop on the table =.=
Then ZY needs to use toothpick to do the undone parts.

Oh one of the cupcakes is defect one. I shan't mention whos.
But definitely someone I DON'T LIKE! hmpf... see how things go on that day lor :p

Went to bishan with yq after that to look for balloon.
Aimed at the smiley face in the first place but too EXPENSIVE! :(
In the end we got a pink one and I have to carry it around!
Everyone was looking at me as if it was my birthday... =.=

Sat down at pasta mania for dinner,
so coincident saw my sec sch friends working there.

All of a sudden a group of ppl start to sing happy birthday song,
then yq say that they were singing for me. Haha :D

Weird huh, recently I saw alot of familiar faces lehh, guess who I saw next in mrt!
JAMES! Carrot Fruit Juice Boy!!!
Surprisingly he knows winnie kang and ask if i know her :D

And now I'm at home sneezing, typing this LONG post :'(
Hope tmr will be a better day.

2010-05-26T10:09:00.001-07:00

Thank you for the poodle balloon.
Thank you for the dinner.

There's nth else I could say other than thank you.

nights.

2010-05-25T04:08:00.000-07:00

The first question that Mr Ang ask me when I stepped into tutorial room was
"Eh linlong, you come from malaysia ah?"

WTH... =.=

And everyone start liking this status in my fb...

WTH X 2 !!! (T_T)

Anyway it made everyone laugh :D
I'm glad that there's something funny to be discussed among everyone and it brightens up my day.
It meant alot to me, it does.

YQ play naughty with me just now before Corporate Governance... haha
(don't think too much ahh... lol)

Missed the days spending with them.
Can't really have lunch together, can't have pris drive me back home, haha :p
Can't be in the same group to do proj, can't go pris house to play wii !

I miss you guys... sobs :'(

Not saying xy your not good ah, haha :p

It's just that from the start of year 1 we've always been hanging out
and doing things together, and now suddenly change into a new environment,
new working group, it made me drifted away from you guys, and I felt bad cause
i'm always "running to the steamer to find Mr Bao"...

HAHAHAHAHAHA xD
YES! Friday going to pris house!!! & I'm going to bully her dog!
:D

2010-05-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

What if my heart grows immune to feel nothing.
If I didn't get my senses back then, will I ever feel this pain?
If I don't know the truth, will I be thinking normally like how other kids think?

I'm thinking things which are redundant and useless.
But what if, yes, what if it never happen in the first place, will I be here now?
what if it wasn't me and was another child, will she/he act as a burden to you
or the only kin, the reason that you're living for?

To me, both are your answers.
It's not an excuse, it's a fact.

I'm a burden to you, I shouldn't exist.
But since I exist, to you, you think that you have the responsibility to raise me up.
In turn, I became your only reason that makes you keep living on.

But who am I to live for?
I know, it's myself. But why? I lived because you gave this life to me.
But now the reason I know why I lived wasn't what I think.

Many will think that it happens anywhere, everywhere.
But to the one who has never had such pressure in her life before will think that,
she doesn't deserve to live.
I know I'm not the one at fault, I'm the consequence of the whole issue.

Although it has been so long, yet I couldn't get over it.

I'm really sorry.

2010-05-23T01:29:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK!!!

Had an awesome weekend at downtown east celebrating Cai Yun's B'dae!!! :D
Played bingo, mj, blah blah gossips and yes! We tried helium!
OMG. My voice didn't change at all :(
Winnie and walter's voice were DAMN FUCKING FUNNY!

It was such a perfect timing to drink last night but in the end all the drinks are gone!
I'm clearly awake of what i'm doing after drinking alrights, not that kind of
person who drink already then will do stupid things one, except for that helium part.
LOL

But after showering at midnight, I cannot tahan when playing mj.
Not vomitting, but headache, it was super bad.
It lasted until now! Okays... I should have taken panadol =.=

Whatever lah

Didn't talk much in train with them cause I can't really concentrate.
And fucking pissed off with this kid, seriously no manners,
kicked me and never apologise, somemore his parents are behind him.
Really don't know how parents teach their kids nowadays.

My mood was already vr low after that kid kick me,
then this IDIOT uncle sitting at the stairs with all his belongings blocking the stairway.
And still he don't even give a damn about moving his stuffs and his butt aside.

wtf...

2010-05-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

Seriously FUCK the timetable!
WHY make everyone wake up so early (9am) to go school when the weather nowadays
is like PMS, and everyone's falling sick.

Arhg... and the *** is also PMS-ing. Really pissed me off.
Don't give instructions clearly.
Super contradicting.
Acting like a small kid.
Trying to say that we've chose the wrong path and showing us 'its' evil grin.
Likes to compare ALOT between 'its' beloved 'babies' and US... WTF!

Hello?! Can you stop living in history?!
Don't expect us to understand what you're trying to say when you didn't even send
the message off clearly. We're not mind readers!

Whatever~

Since you like to assume that we know what you're trying to put off,
then we'll also assume that whatever deadlines you give have no
restriction of "handing in work time".

2010-05-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

Presentation today SUCKS! I officially hate ***!!! :(
Didn't sleep well last night and I on my lights until morning.
Rush to school and saw someone just park his motorbike at the carpark... lol

Stanley did his forfeit today by drinking celery juice... yucks
It's super brave for a person who don't eat vegetable to drink that!
*claps claps* ^^

Oh well tomorrow I'll be going on a FIELD TRIP to peranakan museum!!! :D
Hahaha, and also Changi Airport! Depend on the time we spend at the museum,
if we take too long then we'll not go Changi Airport.

Reach home early and cooked dinner for myself :)
Reminded me of someone's cook and I realise I was doing the same thing.

Weird.
I wonder how I actually mix that sauce.

2010-05-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

Things just get worse each day.
I got scolded in the midst while rushing my ppt for presentation.
She don't understand. It's ok. Cause parents are only concern about your results
rather than what you're doing in school.

She nags and say I don't sleep early and ended up getting myself falling sick.
She blames and say I lie to her everytime.

All along this while I kept quiet. I kept everything to myself.

I don't fight. In the end I cry alone at night.
I don't argue cause I don't want the situation to get worse.

She say she suffers the most.
But who's the one venting the anger the most?
Who's the one suffering all the scoldings?

I bear all the pain inside. I've no choice but to control my anger each time.
I've my reasons and definitely better than yours, but why I choose to stay quiet?

You should have knew it long ago.
You should have realise it earlier, but you'd never learn.

2010-05-17T10:14:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I don't know whether to trust my instincts or not.
I dive into it so hard and fell off so painfully.
Yet now I heard 'some positive' answer from you,
which I don't even know whether it's true, like seeing illusions.

I should stop viewing everything from few months back.
I should have cut off all communication lines to avoid this pain from returning.

Why's reality so harsh?
Why couldn't all of us live in wonderland and live happily ever after?

When I was young, I believe that my life was truly a fairytale.
I believe I will marry the one I love and live happily ever after.
But when I was old enough to know that my life wasn't that perfect,
I stopped believing in fairytales or miracles.
Because reality changed me, reality told me that living real is harsh, is painful,
it's going to tear me down miserably.

2010-05-17T01:03:00.000-07:00

Not much time left and I haven't even start payroll.

Today really cannot tahan practical, keep dozing off.

Hais...

now third party can't help much, even xy's advice also no use.
How? I can't avoid it forever...

2010-05-16T11:13:00.000-07:00

Can't have Ida's treat of KFC today cause my throat haven't recover :(
& Project today was... *yawns* TIRING!

So tired until I don't even know what I'm doing with my IE.

Suddenly got emo at night, not very, but just feel like missing someone.
Dunno why I have the urge of wanting to see that person at that timing.

Weird me.
Maybe I'm too bored and tired.

Oh well, I can't sing for VE tmr, really can't sing! Cos my throat will just get worse.
I think I'll just attend VE to support the juniors and my beloved members :')

LOL

2010-05-15T10:54:00.000-07:00

I didn't know we're good friends.
I didn't know you guys will treat me that well.

Now I know.
And I'm glad that I've found good friends
who can understand each other, who can talk out our feelings,
who's not afraid of speaking the truth though we know that it might hurt,
who treasures friendship more than anyone else.

:)

2010-05-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

Today's ♥ :)

Picnic with awesome fabulous fun clique at marina barrage.
They are suppose to be there to do their NE presentation research,
in the end everyone ended up playing, eating, flying kite :D

Yan Qing got a awesome camera which I dunno what's its name.
Nor nor, those type which can produce your photo out immediately, heehee

The funniest thing happen was that allan's kite got stuck behind the roof,
then when they got it down it actually fell on a woman and the kite covered her!
OMFG! It's super funny! Me and mei zhen laugh like HELL LAH! (so bad of us... lol)

Saw this guy flying kite and looks super cute... LOL
(kk, i shan't describe this further :p)

Left at 4pm plus and head down to clarke quay for pinkdot 2010.
EVERYONE'S SUPER PINK! But i loved it! :D
Saw daniel wear pink for the first time, quite awkward, lol...

Ate dinner at central's kopitiam then walk around to kill time.
Sat at the river side area to chit chat then walter's friend ernest come.
Today's the 2nd day I know him and kind of scary cos he can talk quite ALOT :p

AND so daring lor! Lie to me saying that he's only 16 and in poly yr 2
cos of bla bla bla reason~ bull shit! :x
Another idiot, walter chan, say must hurry buy a cake for his friend b'dae,
then when going off didn't realise that the cake was in ernest's hand =.=

Stupid. HAHAHAHAHA

Then both of us follow him all the way from DG to potong pasir to trick him.
See how KAN CHIONG he is when he forgot to take the cake and then keep calling us!
Classic sia!

My sore throat is recovering already.
But now my coughing's coming back, soon asthma,
then i'll have to see my specialist doc again.
It doesn't seem that there's a cure for my cough.

The price is ex, the medicine he give is always so little,
and making me and my mother going down twice to see. wtf.

The last time i went was when I was in year 1,
it was also that time when that doctor found out that I have low blood pressure.

Now just pray that it's just because of the weather and hopefully
I don't have to go and see again.

2010-05-13T07:40:00.001-07:00

Q: Thought your very close one?

A: Got meh...

I thought we're close too.
Ever since then we drifted away from each other and never talk that much anymore.
You became a habit to me. It's not that kind of relationship.
Sometimes I don't know whether I should text you or not.
Thinking you'd be busy, thinking you might not want to receive my messages.

Or am I just worrying too much?

2010-05-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

It's blessed to have someone love you.
But I don't understand why can't that couple understand each other and talk
out their feelings more.

I used to hate him for stealing away my beloved.
Partially was his fault for leaving my broken family in an isle.
There were few times I cursed him and wish that he could vanish forever.
But as I grew older, I find that mummy needs a companion,
a soulmate whom she can rely on.

She's a woman afterall, needs to be cared and doted.

Sometimes she complains that he's giving her too much pressure and stress,
say bad things about him, about his character,
about how undecisive he is whether to go which restaurant to eat.
But as long as you're with him, you feel happy, don't you?

I'm already grown up, you don't have to worry about how I feel whether you
2 are together or not, cause I've already said that as long as you're happy,
whoever you choose to stay with I'll be fine with it.

But for once, I'd just wish that you could be honest with your feelings.
You may have lied to me say that you don't really care but who knows,
maybe you really care alot for him deep down inside.
And if not, why would you follow him in the first place?

Two is always better than one.

2010-05-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

Craving for western food now but can't eat.
So hungryyy and no one's buying dinner for me.

Ok cos mummy thought I always go out at night to eat dinner and from then on she
never buys dinner for me anymore :(

No mood to mug for tmr's quiz.
Stupid me forget to buy notes and now have to suffer by seeing from softcopy and
writing it down.

Oh yahh... this morning VE had lunchtime perf @ library.
Alot of PEOPLE AH! Saw some of the juniors too :D

Nicholas noticed that my voice changed, haha, cos of SORE THROAT luhh...
Anyways thx dude! For coming down to support us! (though you never sing... lol)
Thanks shu yi! For memorising the lyrics in such a short time :p
Thanks Cai yun for coming to sing with us too! ♥♥

Alright, guess i'll have to dig the fridge to find food.

brrrr... suddenly feel so cold :(

2010-05-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

爱上你

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受

我不停寻找着理由解释分手
心好空像没温度的气球
我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
如果同一秒钟你也想起了我
心只要能微微颤抖就已足够

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
或许我永远都看不透

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错
爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

放心我还会好好的过

2010-05-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

Couldn't find anything to eat and forgot that inside fridge have PORK CHOP!
Hmpff... whatever, I've seen the doc alr, have med, so eat first then eat med!
(tt's how my mum teach me... :p )

Really thx everyone for concerning me in fb, though i keep updating my health condition on fb.
HAHA

But still I want your to know what I'm doing and how I've been since I never go school today,
so it's a good thing to keep updating my fb status :D

2010-05-11T01:48:00.000-07:00

Didn't go for dinner after ve instead took cab home straight after that.
Was feeling really tired and I can barely walk to the station.

Woke up today morning 11am and felt like the world's spinning.
Slept for a few more hours then head down to my old house clinic.

Thought I can still chiong for the last lesson but can't.
The practical is so damn important and now i've made pei sze to wait for me to do on thursday :(
Plus, today suppose to stay back in school to do proj, now I'm making everyone to wait for my part of work.
SORRY :'( !

Felt really really bad from yesterday until now.
I don't understand why I'm always like this.
Sometimes I just wish that whatever I do I'll feel right and is out of good intention.
But do people know that I'm doing this for good?

Some replied, yes. But some remain silent.
It's better to tell me rather than keeping it to yourself, cos your opinion means alot to me.
I don't want to become a bad guy at the end of the day,
and then all the ignorance and weird looking expressions come in.

2010-05-10T02:06:00.001-07:00

YJ pass her DRIVING!!! :D
Ida's so going to treat us KFC buddy meal on sunday.

(my beloved throat, please recover by saturday! )

Feel very weird these few nights, don't know what's the reason :I
Maybe I keep staying out late for the past few weeks and suddenly fall sick
and have to go back home early to rest.

I've really got use to being alone at home.
Got use to eating dinner alone ever since ah ma passed away.
Got use to everytime when there're important events that need your parents to be
there with you but I'm always appearing up alone while seeing my friends have their
parents with them.

I remember once I nearly got into a fight with my mum during my lower sec sch time
and I cried badly at the bus station.

We always say that cherish our loved ones when they're still alive and don't wait
until when they're gone then regret.
But at the lowest point of my life, I thought to myself, what if I just die right
now? Will mummy regret for not listening to my sorrows and place herself in my
shoes?

We're the ones playing the part to bring the family together,
but do parents play their part to show more concern to their children?

It's always too late when they found out that they didn't do enough and
all their kids have already grown up.

2010-05-10T02:06:00.000-07:00

I can't wake up in the morning :(
And the first thing I realise when I'm really awake, is that my throat is burning!!!

It hurts alot and I couldn't eat anything.
Ok eventually I ate vege mix rice at south canteen, then auntie so good, charge me $1.80 only! ^^

Practical was stress.
Discussing about project proposal presentation and I couldn't understand anything.
Absorb abit here and there, still can't see the whole picture of SAP implementation for our company.
:(

Whatever, I'll just do what I can do first.

Lecture bored, having Quiz this thursday more BORED!
3 topics and weightage so much, 15% lehh !!!
Somemore wednesday I going barrage with clique.
DIE, must chiong revision tmr night :(

Having VE practice in another 2 hours time, but I cannot sing!!!
Feel so fucked up now in clubroom, dunno why everytime I see this guy makes me want to punch him!

Humpff...
No motivation to do anything le lahhh...

:'(

2010-05-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

Suddenly realise all my 3 good friends are going UNI.
1 already in, 1 awaiting confirmation, 1 will definitely get in when she grad from poly.

So envy them.
NOT because I want to go UNI also.
UNI life is stress and full of shitty projects and stuffs.
I don't want to continue the second episode of POLY after 3 yrs of studying in nyp.

Oh as I say, girls like my friends are bright and super smart, and can score better than anyone else.
I like people who are really clever and hardworking and not stuck up, just like them :D

Oh oh pearlin if you see this post, I confirm with you first! cos i too lazy to sms u... lol
The $8 Kbox is still on, until october, in any kbox outlets!
Tab in my shoutbox or fb me :D
HAHA

2010-05-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

I finally met up with them... gawd, noticed everyone dyed their hair.
Still remember those old days when we were so happy to release from school early
and then go to seoul garden to eat until evening.

But now we're really like getting mature, and don't do stupid things that attract attention,
like putting the watermelon in the griller and in the soup, doing stupid stuns in the restaurant.

Bleahh, k, i'll cut the crap.

It's still vr vr happening today.
1 big and 1 small cockroach were like hiding inside the table and then suddenly crawl out.
Scaring ruo yuan until she don't even dare to touch her food (she almost cry... :( )
So we requested to change table. It's really unhygienic, but what else to do,
we already pay for everything.

Went bugis after eating, and saw a fight at bugis street.
Some ppl very K.P.O, take out their camera and video the fight, wth...
Pei ying say, the boyfriend was like telling the girlfriend,
"是那个男的被打又不是你，你拍来做什么？" LOL

They were all like very anticipated to see whether the video will be uploaded to stomp or not.
Hopefully it does :p

2010-05-07T09:30:00.001-07:00

Finally! 3rd week's presentations are OVER !
And my performance for today's current affairs and world issue's not bad (:
In fact Mr Lim was really encouraging both groups for doing a good job in preparing
our contents in such a short time.

Lesson seems abit packed today, but the weird thing is, I actually absorbed what I
learn today! Most of the time I skip or sleep in lecture hall, never do tutorial,
FB during practical.

But today I actually did practical and tutorial and even know what Mr Ho's explaining for Finance!
Good Job LL! :D

Walk to station with xy them, and was talking about issues that's concerning me and her.
Didn't know that her experience was much much painful than me.
Tears rolling out fast on my face when I heard that sentence that her friend told her, it's really really sad.

But I kinda envy her situation.
It's like even though, the truth was revealed by the person itself, but the good thing
is that they never ignore you, but still treat you like a close friend.

Although now that you've said that you guys are not as close as before,
but in one's heart, how could the painful memories and the feelings for him be ease away.

We dump ourselves into unrealistic emotions, trying to escape the pain that's killing us inside.
But at the end of the day, we still have to face the fact and continue our life.

They wouldn't notice our presence and efforts that we've put in for them.
But we definitely can have a choice to not continue this behaviour and start treating
ourselves better, start to love ourself.

2010-05-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

Q: Why are you so free?

A: Cos I'm free.

Q: Not tired meh?

A: Tired ah, but not really that tired.

Q: Stay until so late, no school work to do?

A: Got, but I always do last min work, so go home early also no use.

Q: Why you so quiet?

A: Cos I don't feel like talking.

Q: Who's your best friend?

A: I don't have a best friend, all my friends are my best friends.

End.

2010-05-05T10:17:00.000-07:00

Sectionals today shocked me.
Juniors came!!! Somemore they are guys.

Clumsy me fell down at the side of the road,
I think one of the juniors saw it, plus my classmate too :'(

I can really list down all the historic moments

- Fell down from bicycle at ECP like over 5 times?
- Roll down the stairs in the theatre 1 time (luckily no one saw it)
- Fell down the stairs 1 time in pri sch, 1 time in sec sch
- Fell down the stairs (again) at my house
- Fell on the escalator and got 5 scratch marks on my knee
- Fell off from the table when cleaning (at old house)

Brilliant!

-.-

I'm sorry I love you [MV] KOREA DRAMA

2010-05-04T07:20:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry I love you [MV]

I just like how they edit this video, it's sweet,
but i'm not going to watch it.
The ending is too sad.

2010-05-04T03:27:00.000-07:00

Ip Man 2 was so cool!!!

Watched Ip Man 2 with xy, ida, yj and hl after first lesson,
cos we have 4 hours of break in between until the last lesson. lol
Took cab down to amk hub cos everyone was too tired to walk, hahaha!

Coincidently saw allan, yan qing, priscilla, stanley and si hao @ nebo :)

Oh yah, pepper lunch ice cream is ♥
I like the sesame flavour which hl ordered, too bad, I ordered caramel, it's too sweet :(

Saw nicholas and kah hong before going up to movie.
They were shopping at the YOG merchandise area. HAHA

Last lesson was a fast one.
Ended quite early and reach home at 5.40pm (:

2010-05-03T09:13:00.000-07:00

永远的好朋友。

我们就当永远的好朋友，好吗？

2010-05-02T21:55:00.002-07:00

OMG I wanna puke!

Yesterday went home vr late and when train was reaching bishan,
a pervertic 30 - 40 yr old uncle walk towards the girl standing infront of me and
keep staring at her breasts! wtf!

When i got off the train he's still staring!
And that stupid 'look like' caucasian girl didn't realise that the pervertic uncle
is staring and moving closer to her for 5 stops!

*roll eyes*
Feel so disgusted.

2010-05-02T21:55:00.001-07:00

Good news and bad news.
The good news is, Mr Ang's Presentation's over!!!

BUT! Bad news is, Corporate Governance Presetation's postponed!
Should be presenting it tomorrow but Ms Goh fell sick :(

And one more presentation on Current Affairs on friday! *faints*
Anyway that module is either a pass or a fail, no credits! haha

YEAH going to watch Ip Man 2 tomorrow with xy, ida, hl and yj !!!
Cos we have 4 hours of break before the last lesson... lol

So anticipating saturday's outing!
^^ Going to meet girls to swim! Yeah! ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-05-02T06:41:00.001-07:00

I need more brains to absorb the knowledge of SAP ERP so that I can
shoot back my lecturer. Hmpf...

Now my part is like so short, only 3 minutes :(
Somemore not really convincing.

:(

Anyway now's 10.00pm and I'm still at xy's house which is at TIONG BAHRU !!!
God... 5% presentation, why are we so anxious and chionging for this stupid proj?

I'm starting to suspect myself why I choose this module in the first place...
(No worries my grp mates, I'm just randomly writing this post, cos I'm VERY BORED! AND TIRED!)

Tskk...
I feel like clubbing.

2010-05-02T05:14:00.000-07:00

Project at xy house and staying even longer!
Now's 8.20pm and we're waiting for dinner (: haha

Ok seriously I dunno what to blog about, cause I'm dying from starvation...

Hope tmr's presentation My Ang won't shoot us too much difficult question.
*cross fingers*

(:

2010-05-01T10:09:00.000-07:00

Project today ended very early for me, and I feel so bad :(
Ida please ah, next time when you coming late, state the time you'll be reaching,
otherwise I dunno how long I have to wait for you then I can leave.

Went back home change and go out again.
Suppose to go clubbing, and I was so anticipated to go, plus my mummy also allow,
then YOU suddenly tell me NO MORE clubbing. I WAS SUPER SAD LAH !

Anyway no clubbing nvm, got free meals :)
Daniel's youth group got BBQ and he brought us to his church to eat at around 7pm plus.
After that all of them have prayers and singing session before leaving.

It's soooo long ever since the last time I went to church, which was 8 years ago. lol
But I went there in the morning that time, and I still remember the church location,
it was beside Novena Mrt Station :)

Drank at west coast park? I dunno what's that park's name, so whtever~
Bought big mac meal, super full lah!
Then that 2 idiots try to climb the pyramid, girl girl climb until very tiring,
stop at different level, sit down, stand up again and then continue. Super funny lah, haha xD
The other one dun need to say lor, look so naughty and machiam like kampong kid, climb super fast!

Me leh? Like their maid ah, look after their belongings, cannot play :(
Sadded.

Random...

Feel so empty inside w/o friends, feel so lonely and bored when alone at home.
Sometimes I wish I can see my beloved friends every minute every second,
bitch and gossip all day long, no restriction, no fustrations, no stupid thoughts (sometimes still have :p )

I used to like being alone, and can think about useless things.
But now I don't. Why ah? Can anyone tell me why?

:I

2010-04-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

Today HOU HAPPENING AH...

Morning overslept and then was late for current affairs lesson.
In the end didn't go but went for people's skills class instead.
My drawing still can make it, at least I never mis-communicate, haha.

Lunch at south and the chinese rice stall food VR NICE !!!
& first time trying after it's renovation (:

Lab wasn't as boring as it seems, maybe it's sth new to me and I'm keen to try HANDS ON PRACTICAL! lol

Just after Mr Ho's tutorial, suddenly my proj group mates turn very serious.
Well this isn't once or twice, but many times already.
He doesn't go after one of our classmates but mostly all of us.

Don't see he everytime never come school then blurr blurr dunno what's going on.
He know's how to tackle those who are soft hearted and can try to bluff them to help him.
C'mon, 3 years and still not enough?
You're old enough to do everything on your own, if you don't know you can ask,
but DON'T EVER TAKE OUR KINDNESS FORGRANTED!

Don't wanna talk about him anymore, anyway~
Met my clique after last lesson and went to amk hub to watch Iron Man 2 (:
Wasn't clear about the story in the first place cos never watch the first movie,
then somewhere in the middle of the movie we all nearly fell asleep, haha.
Oh oh and we smuggle prata hotdog tt we bought from school to the theatre, lol.

Felt bad for leaving so fast after movie.
Stupid walter and daniel, suddenly say drink at 8.45pm like tt,
but girl girl you still got '良心', drive me back my house to take my vodka, haha
(though it's your drinking... -.-)

And please luh, next time don't spend all your money on 1 stupid phone and in the end,
no money to spend for daily expenses, no money to pump your petrol and need other people to pay
for your fuel just to get their ride back home, cos they cannot tahan liao, LOL

Left me so poor thing go back home by myself :(
You good! :(

2010-04-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

I don't like to complain.
I don't like to make things worst by clarifying who's the one who never listen properly.

I hope you could be more alert to the surroundings.
You know that all of us made a mistake on something, and I'm just asking you to do one simple task,
which is RE-DO.
I remind you mistakes that you shouldn't be making the second time,
and your work to be handed in asap.
But what did you reply?
You didn't answer my question!

When I ask for one thing, reply to MY QUESTION & not asking me another irrelevant question.
Secondly, you're not the only one suffering, other ppl like me also suffering from sleepless nights.
I'm not indirectly shooting you, but I just can't tolerate your 'innocent' mindset,
thinking that everyone should follow your way, treat you nice like how others did.
We scold you is for your own good, we push you to do work cos we want you to learn
something from it, not bullying you.
So stop whining, grow up & be like an adult!

I have to complete things by tmr too, I have my own matters to settle also.
And now I'm here covering everything and preparing everything for you,
but ppl just can't see how much workload ones carrying.

I'm not really in good health condition right now.
So please stop trying to play around with me thinking that I can just let you go everytime.
I'm a human, I have my limits too.
Please give me a break.

2010-04-28T02:24:00.000-07:00

For the very first time my clique all falling sick at the same time!!!
HAHAHA so shiock. lol but tmr all the sick ones going watch movie. haha

Stupid me today, brought my lappy to school w/o bringing my charger -.-
And now i'm using my friend's charger to charge.
But she really dunno how to take care of her lap top one lehh.
Batt already fully charge and the charger's still charging it.

Anyway she rich ma, anytime she want to change lap top she can just buy it straight away.

I wanna be rich too!!!

2010-04-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

Seriously, don't act like you're trying to be friendly and like buddy buddy with me.
I don't like ppl sticking to me as if you're like my very close friend.

Liking my status doesn't make me like you or want to know you much either.
So stop commenting into each of my status and trying to say that we've common thoughts,
cause I'm now very very i.r.r.i.t.a.t.e.d by you!

This has nth to do with my classmates :)

2010-04-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

Chalet @L436 until 7.45pm!
But seriously that room is really dirty, even healthy ppl like Hongling also sneeze when she got in.
Watch SUJU concert video with XY lappy, omg! Heechul damn cute!!!

Queue was super long at interchange, but no choice I still have to wait.
Bus suddenly stop 2 STOPS before my house cause the engine got problem, wtf, make me walk back home.
Anyway the bus fare was free (:

HAHA

Afternoon came a bunch of ppl to my house to change all the lights covering.
And wooooo, my room's light is SUPER BRIGHT! :o

I think if I wake up from sleep will go blind if I on the light.

2010-04-26T22:07:00.000-07:00

I didn't know that I'll miss so many activities when going overseas proj.
OFFICIALLY HATE FYP!!!

I really really want to join the singers ensemble for performance!
I want to go for carolings as it's my last year liao!
I want to have more chances to sing outside with pro singers!
BUT FYP's stopping me from doing all these things!!!

:(

Can I don't go suzhou?
Can I stay to sing?

2010-04-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

I can't really describe how I feel today. It's confusing.
I feel like tearing inside but I dunno what's the reason.
I feel so stressed up over a 5% project presentation.
I feel like eating alot of food after school but ended up still feel so empty inside.

I was waiting for it on the way home but it didn't appear.
Somehow it has become a habit to me, a habit that i can't live without.

I fear that I'll get use to it.
I fear when the day you're totally gone and out of my life, I wouldn't have the strength to carry on.
I fear each and everyday I couldn't get to see your face.

I fell for it so many times and still, I couldn't get over it.

While waiting for bus just now I tremble so badly.
I pass by the worst memories of my life nearly everyday and now I got use to it.
How on earth did I forget everything bit by bit when it was so painful at that moment.

I use to cry myself to sleep every night back then.
I use to fear of being alone.
I use to think that i'm not blessed to be born into this world.

But all these are my ways to run away from reality.
Reality tells me to live like a human, to have feelings, to learn to accept the truth.

The truth is, I'm not alone at all.
I have my mummy, I have my friends, I have my ve members, I have my girls.
I don't want to look like a moody person who always needs concern from ppl,
I want to be the one who'll console you guys and make your day better.

Give me time, and I promise I'll become a better friend, a better girl who lives for herself.

2010-04-25T08:27:00.000-07:00

Bai Wei Xiu is SO SO SO SIZZLING HOT !!! wooo, make me sweat sia~
And caught my all time favourtie, Qi Yu Wu !!! >.< luvs luvs

Soon all the potential actress will be gone.
And wtf, so many malaysian actress.

Forget it.

(Random)
MARK ZHAO YOU TING ROCKS !!!
DAMN GORGEOUS !!!
LOL

2010-04-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

VE AUDITION TMR !!!

OMG... I feel like a freshie again!
Still remember Mr Ong's comment for me during audition, "You have a husky voice."

lol

Can I have an audition again?

hahahahaha xD